People really change with Time

It’s called height of bewilderment.

It’s true that things are becoming bad to worse for people like us but instead of concentrating on what is desirable in these circumstances I am trying to concentrate on finding innovative ways to cajole myself.

Huh! It not the sudhanshu that used to be in the past. In my life I never behaved like a coward, always tried for the success and ultimately achieved something but never got satisfied. Still I have the hunger and crave for learning new things. One phrase that can describe me is “Jack of ALL trades Master of None”. I am becoming more and more reserve type day by day and I don’t know why I feel not very much comfortable in parties and other social gatherings. May be an inferiority complex or I started hating myself or my lethargy still I am confused. In past I always think myself as the best now I feel I am the worst. Still some of my good friends wants my company and I respect their feeling and concern towards me but I feel I don’t deserve to be treated as a sincere and honest because I am no longer sincere and I daily cheat myself. Daily I pledge to work in creative way and never adhere to it. I don’t know where my destiny will take me and I still don’t know about my career objective and goal. Now a day’s only one thing I see is how to run into bandwagon. It’s not me; it’s somebody else in me.

I am very much impressed with one of my good friend. In this tense and tiresome situation he is really imperturbable and honest with himself. I really want to imbibe these qualities in myself. Hopefully I will overcome from this traumatic situation very soon and start working as I was in recent past.

The good thing in this time that I have found a good friend whom I started relying more and more and sharing almost everything.